We are pretty mixed up when it comes to goodness and good works.
We often want some "thanks" or "recognition" because we helped.
We gave. We offered. We did it. Sometimes we even want it back.
We check on what was given and see if it is used according to our
wishes.
We take this business, this goodness and good works business
all very personally. We count and measure and keep track and exclaim,
"I've done enough! Let someone else pitch in."
These mixed-up signs tell us we are in it, in the business of good works
to get something from others whether it is a simple thank you, some
appreciation or a gold medal.
It does little to help us find out what is really going on. When we carry on like
a bargaining saint we are in the realm of sparkly gods. It's vanity and it's rooted
in the small minded self that wants to be god. This is not the Way.
Giving, receiving and gifts are empty of self, but we tend to put our name
on the name tag. We claim it and the claim is costly. See for yourself
how painful this deal making is. Selfishness washes up all kinds of irritable
and angry feelings. We feel insulted, forgotten and quite put out
when we are not recognized for the "good" we give and do.
Giving, receiving and gifts are traceless. Buddhist monks and nuns beg
for their food; their practice is to rely on the lay community. No easy feat.
The begging that is an offering and a gift to the lay community.
The food is the offering and gift of the lay community.
It is a practice of mutual assistance. The gifts, receivers and givers practice
letting go of the wish for recognition and approval.
It is sheer nonsense on the part of any man to think that he is born to help the world.
It is simply vanity; it is selfishness insinuating itself in the form of virtue. Vivekananda
Yet, we must work and constantly do good in service for our Beloved Dharma until we unite
with the Beloved Dharma. This work is selfless, empty and without any trace;
giving, receiving and gifts help us practice selflessness. Generosity is first on the
list of virtues.
